My Sweet Insanity


I am very sad to report that my good friend from facebook, and a friend from back in college a few years back, has passed away last night at 8:47 pm. Rose Sari, better know as "Kimono Rose" on facebook, was hit by a drunk driver on Friday while coming home from work. Her boyfriend Ren had tried to call me, but as I did not recognize the phone number, I ignored it. I'm feeling so guilty for that! If I had answered the phone I could have gone out to Kelowna and at least have seen her one last time before she passed on. Ren had used Rose's phone to text me, then he called me when he was certian that I would answer the phone. It feels so lonely without her. I mean I have not seen her since "English for Advertising", four years ago, but she was still there to talk to. In the summer we were going to go out to a convention and even cos-play. Her as "Enma Ai" and me as "Hone-Onna." When my uncle returned I was going to meet up with her as he takes "Satoshi" and I to Kelowna all the time. We had plans on shopping together that day. It's sad too because it was her first week back at work after a two week holiday. There's not even an memorial that I can attend as her remains will go back to Holland with Ren. That's where her family awaits her return. I miss her so much already, and can't help but feel so bad for not picking up that phone! I had the money to make the short trip to Kelowna, my boss would have given me the time off, but no, I ignored the damn phone. Why the hell did I do that?!?! I didn't even try and call back the number afterwards to see who it was or if it was important. I just feel so bad now, and I don't know what to do. I was just getting over a relationship and assult trama, much of which Rose walked me thru, and now I'm hit with this. I really, REALLY, wish that I could have been there with her that one last day!